A Little Peep Into Fatherhood

My cousin just gave birth to a girl and it’s my first time to be in a hospital room where a baby was just born in a couple of hours ago. Although it’s no big deal compared to those who waited for the moment of the birth and witness it, but this is the closest so far that I’ve been to compared to the rest of my nieces and nephews from my cousins. It was sure exiting for me, even though I never carry her because she was so small and fragile that I was afraid I could harm her. Nevertheless, touching her was more than enough. So far, this particular cousin of mine is the closest to me (even by age) among those who have given birth. At that moment it dawned upon me, “Hey, she is now experiencing motherhood and she’s just a few year ahead from you (me)..” That' just smacked through. Thus, learning to have somebody new in the family that comes from the same flesh and bones is somehow extraordinary to me. The whole thing sounds like a miracle! All those years of looking at new born child was nothing more special than just a ‘cute little baby’. Even when I have not fully comprehend fatherhood yet, but in that moment I had a glimpse into fatherhood. What more it seems, if it’s a girl- the sense of being protective just comes naturally. I can go on but I can’t fully write out what the whole thing is. It’s like no words would do any justice to it.

Just a new sense of awe from another perspective for me…